7am sucks!!

Just got back from work, my girlfriend is being super annoying for some reason, I think its just too early. It sucks right now with all this economic bull shit going on, I don't know how we're gonna make it through all of it but I have hope that by the time I'm 44 we'll be over it! who knows, maybe I'll die a poor man, but thats what I have noticed recently, it cost a lot of money just to live, but it cost almost just as much to die! people are dying and can't even afford to be buried, or even have a plaque/tombstone. Its just sad, I remember a few years ago when I first started working, I only would get around $100-$200 a check and it would stretch all week, back then I was driving and going out to a bunch of shows, taking girls out and all types of ill shit. Now I stay home all day and I'm still broke, I don't know how that works out but it does! Eh, as long as I have music I'll be ok. I'm hoping one day that can help pay some bills. I know it sounds stupid, lame and cheesy, but music is all I really have to hang on too, without it my life would be a wreck, I would be on drugs, or in a gang/crew just like every other loser in this city. I feel that I'm very lucky to be where I am with my music, only if I could shake off this whole "drummer" position and become noticed as the musician I am. It's funny, for the most part I write a lot more music then Carlos does, but I never bring any of it to the table. I guess I'm afraid that someone will talk shit about it, or say its not good, or just laugh and say "Drummers don't write songs" I guess, thats just what I am; a fuckin' drummer.